So, I’ve had the urge to write for a while, but I’m just now actually sitting down and doing it. Mainly cause lonelycheese15 told me I needed to. She’s actually probably the only one who will even read this, but oh well. If anyone else is reading this, I’m warning you now, it’s mainly a rant about my oh so wonderful life.
This past week or so has been pretty interesting. Had a situation involving me, my best friend, and her fiance. Basically I was an idiot and wrote some stuff I shouldn’t have. I didn’t intend to share it, but I broke down and did. That’s when it all went to hell. I never truly thought I had a shot up until a couple months ago, but I let that slight glimmer of hope get the best of me and acted like a real bitch. So now her fiance doesn’t like me all that much and doesn’t want me to come visit them once they get settled in Puerto Rico. I really hope one day I can make him see that I really do care about him, almost as much as I care about her. Maybe in time, things will calm down. I would love to be able and go visit them both like I was planning. I guess my plans are on hold for now. The one good thing is, now I have a little longer to save and plan for the trip.
Next, I’m tired of people worried about my sex life. Yes, I’m a single, 22 year old virgin. Get the fuck over it. I’ve had my opportunities; I just haven’t found anyone that I trusted enough to have sex with. I’m sorry, but if guy is going to be putting his dick inside me, I need to know that he’s being honest when I ask him if he’s clean, and I need to know that if something happens and the protection doesn’t work, I’m not going to be dealing with a pregnancy by myself. So sorry that I haven’t conformed to society and had a bunch of sex yet. And while on the subject of sex, just because I am bisexual does NOT mean I’m going to have a threesome with you and your girlfriend. Especially not when you completely forgot about me for a good year and a half and just recently started talking to me again. Don’t even pretend you know me. If you knew me, you’d know I have moods where I don’t want to talk to ANYONE. I have moods where I just want to hide myself away from everyone with only my stuffed animals for company. Just because I say nothing is up doesn’t mean something is wrong. It’s actually a GOOD thing for me to not have a whole list of things wrong. So seriously, back the fuck off. I’m not sleeping with you, I’m not sleeping with your girl. There are only like 2 people who I’m attracted to and trust enough to sleep with and you aren’t on the list.
The lack of religious tolerance frustrates me. That plus people thinking the Bible is the law of the land instead of the Constitution. Separation of church and state is a fairly basic concept people. I could write a whole blog on this subject alone, but seriously…just let people believe how they want to believe. And don’t make people go to church if all you’re going to do is sleep through the entire sermon. I believe what I want to believe. For the most part it’s different from my family’s viewpoint. That doesn’t mean it’s wrong, and it certainly doesn’t mean I want your viewpoints shoved down my throat every single day.
Finally, for god’s sake shut up about the Steelers. Great, they made it to the Super Bowl. No need to change the Lord’s Prayer to say something about the Steelers and do a ton of other stupid little things to spam my facebook newsfeed. And get off your damn high horse. Everyone is entitled to their opinion; people are allowed to say the Steelers suck just like you are allowed to say they are the most amazing team ever. Just because someone lives in “Steelers country” doesn’t automatically make them a Steelers fan. I’ll stick with my Cowboys, no matter what their record was, thank you very much.
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