Time for 2011

Another year is coming to an end.  2010 was actually a fairly calm year for me personally.  After a couple of very eventful years, it was actually nice to not have a really eventful year for once.  I did finally have a full course load for the first time since I took my break from college and managed to get good grades in all my classes.  I did have some downsides too, but that’s to be expected. As for resolutions, I didn’t make any last year.  I never seem to keep them, so last year I just didn’t see the point in making them.  However, I think I’ll make a couple this year and actually try to accomplish them.

1. Be a better friend.  I take my friends for granted too much.  They deal with my extreme moodiness all the time.  I need to reign in my moods, learn to chill, and just be a good friend to them.

2. Figure out what the hell I want in my life and actually take steps to accomplish that.  I will never accomplish anything sitting downstairs in my grandmother’s basement.  I need to be out on my own, living my own life, making my own decisions.

3. Be more responsible.  I am very irresponsible.  I need to take responsibility for my actions, thoughts, feelings and emotions.  I also need to be more responsible with my money and be more responsible for keeping my room organized better.
Every year about this time, I say something to some of the people that mean a lot to me…so here I go.
Chelsey–Thanks for helping me keep my head on straight.  You always speak your mind and tell it to me straight, which I really do appreciate.  I need someone to keep me grounded in this crazy world.
Bethany–Wifey, you’re amazing.  You are one of my biggest supporters no matter what and I know that I can talk to you about anything and everything.  You mean the world to me and I have no problem admitting that introducing you to me was the one good thing that came from one of my past relationships.
Justin–I am glad that I’ve gotten to really know you this year.  You are truly different from any guy I’ve ever met.  Keep treating my bff like you’ve been treating her; you’re doing a great job.  I’m glad you make her so happy.
Teremarie–I think you’re amazing.  I’m proud to call you my best friend.  You may be younger than I am, but I look up to you.  You’ve succeeded in moving out of your parents’ home and you’ve made a new home in a place far away from where you grew up.  We’ve definitely had our ups and downs, but through it all you’ve put up with me.  I only hope that I mean half as much to you as you do to me.  I can’t wait to see you.  Seeing you will truly make 2011 the best year J  <3 you always

Stop the Drama!!

Why does drama seem to follow me wherever I go?  Just as I get one situation under control, another appears.  Am I doomed to live in a drama filled bubble the rest of my life?  Less than a week after the whole situation with Amanda occurred where I made a conscious decision to end our friendship for the sake of my mental health, another situation has come up.

Anyone reading this probably has heard about the situation.  One of my friends tweeted what appeared to be an actual question; another friend responded with her opinion, and a subsequent fight ensued.  I thought it was over the first day, but others got involved and took sides.  I was the one person attempting to stay neutral but still ended up playing messenger.  This blog may come back to bite me in the ass, but I can’t keep biting my tongue.

I’m sick of the crap.  I spent most of high school stuck in between two groups.  I don’t want a repeat of that, yet that is what’s occurring.

Seriously, anything posted to Twitter can be seen by your followers.  ALL your tweets.  ALL your followers.  Even if sent to another person, it still appears on your page and can be seen.  If you post something that appears to be in the form of a question, expect responses.  You know, I almost replied to D’s tweet first.  More than just Tere thought that was a serious question.  We’d seen your previous tweets about hot half naked workers, therefore we assumed you were serious.  Then you kept trying to say the tweet wasn’t even about you.  I looked on your page.  You were tweeting to one of your twitter friends about how you couldn’t believe you missed out on your one last chance to perv!  I also didn’t appreciate you complaining to others about the “immature teenagers” and how they wouldn’t say stuff to your face.  You were doing the exact same thing.  All Tere did was give her opinion, then defend her opinion.  If you read this, I’m sure you’ll be pissed as hell, but I’m tired of keeping my mouth shut.  And while I’m at it, Tere is a damn good friend.  Sure she’s pissed me off before and upset me, but I can’t think of one friend who hasn’t.  It doesn’t matter; friends fight.  What matters is a couple hours later we’re talking as usual cause we love each other.

To the people who jumped in, I love you all but you shouldn’t have jumped in.  I understand why you did, wishing to defend the viewpoint you saw as correct.  But it really just aggravated the situation.  Sometimes it’s better to just not say anything.

I sat here for a few minutes trying to find something to say to Tere but the thing is, I completely agree with her.  Ok, maybe she shouldn’t have spoken her mind and maybe she shouldn’t have cussed.  But honestly, that’s just who she is.  I respect her for speaking her mind despite what others may think.

So yeah, I guess I’m a little biased.  But this is honestly what I think.  If I disagreed with Tere, I’d tell her because I know that even if we disagree, at the end of the day we’re still going to be best friends.  I would hope my friendship with D is strong enough to survive this.  I just can’t keep biting my tongue cause it kills me inside.

The end of 2009

As one year ends and another begins….yeah millions of people around the world are probably writing blogs that begin in a similar fashion, talking about whether they kept their new year’s resolutions from last year and what their resolutions for this year are.  Well I’m not going to exactly do that.  I don’t remember what my resolutions from last year were, let alone whether I accomplished them or not.  I don’t see the point in making any this year; it’s a nice sentiment but we all know new year’s resolutions are just made to be broken within a week.

2009 was a rough year for many reasons, yet, despite what my grandma may think, I consider it a good year.  The roughest part was probably the passing of my grandpa in March, shortly after my 21st birthday.  But despite that happening, good things also happened.  I finally started back to college and proved to myself that I could do it by earning a 4.0 GPA both semesters.  My self confidence, while still severely lacking, improved by leaps and bounds.  I became more emotionally stable.  Most of all I met some wonderful people who truly enrich my life.  I dedicate this to the people who make my life worth living.

Bethany, my best friend, my wife :-p. (For all those confused, it’s an inside joke.)  I love you so damn much.   I honestly don’t know where I’d be today without you.  You have helped me through bad situations and been one of my biggest cheerleaders during good situations.  I will never forget how you took time out of your birthday just to make sure I was ok when grandpa died.  Hopefully 2010 turns out to be the year we finally get to meet.

Chelsey, you always give me your honest opinion no matter what, even if it’s to say that I’m being an idiot.  Your sarcasm keeps me laughing during even the worst times, and I’m so glad I have someone to share my hatred of idiots with.

Allison, your insanity and our random chats are things I look forward to so much.  You will never know how much it means to me that you and JD have taken time out to come visit me, even when I can’t come visit you.  Oh, and this is for you, since you’ve probably worn your other one out…*hands brand new pool noodle*.

Diana, you are truly the big sister I always wanted.  You make getting up at 6 am every morning worth it.  Our chats are truly something I look forward to every day and they really mean a lot to me.  Thank you for all the times you’ve listened to my rambling, for putting up with my lengthy and often daily face book messages, and for being there for me no matter what.  Thank you for all the advice you have given and for being one of my biggest supporters.  I love you big sis and wish you didn’t live on the other side of the world!

Tere, what do I say about you?  I’m still unsure as to why you put up with me sometimes, but I’m so grateful that you do.  Despite only knowing you a few months, we’ve certainly had our share of ups and downs, but somehow we made it through.  You’ve never given up on me even when I gave up on myself and for that I thank you.  You are a wonderful friend, and I’m sorry that I tend to frustrate you quite often.  I promise, I am yours, forever or until you get tired of me, whichever comes first.  I love you so much.

I have so many other people who bring joy to my life, but if I named them all, I’d be here until the end of next year.  So to all my friends, I do love you all so much and hope that all your wishes for 2010 come true.